Good day to you!!!! Today I wanted to talk about integrity. Integrity (from dictionary.com) is the adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty.
Some time ago, I was sitting in my place of spiritual development and during the service we were having communion, during this time the alter was open for anyone who wanted to participate and re-dedicate themselves to Yeshua in different areas of their lives. I made no hasty decision to go up, but rather i took this time to reflect long and hard about some decisions i've made over the course of time, and I also thought about some people I found myself associating with. As I sat there, in my heart and soul I knew that I wanted to make healthier choices for my spiritual health. I had allowed poisionous behaviors into my personal space; and in doing so I became more and more desensitized to behaviors, decisions and codes of my spiritual beliefs. As a result of this my soul began to lack the vitality I was accustomed too; I became thirsty spiritually. I could feel the inner parts of me crave my energy source Yeshua. I can remember thinking " What are you doing!?" " What have you opened yourself up too!?" I began to weep, knowing that I no longer wanted to feel distant from my creator; though I knew he was there, I still felt distant. A few weeks prior to this, I remember calling a dear, dear, friend of mine who I love very much and thank my energy source for her often. She is like a big sister to me, though she would say mother :-) but I called her and shared some things with her and we talked and the words she spoke were like breaths of life to my soul. She affirmed what I knew and what I knew I needed to do. It is SO important to have a support person and/or group, we ALL need it. It's so easy to get off course or become distracted, having these person(s) in your life will always guide you to what is pure and true, not toxicity. Her love and grace while she spoke truth was the character and nature of that of my spiritual father. I knew in that moment that the love my energy source has for me far out weighed that of the path that I started to veer on. So as I sat there during this time of re-dedication, I made a decision. I made the decision to follow the patterns that Yeshua laid out as an option for me. I decided that nothing and no one was worth me not being properly connected to my energy source. I did not want to risk the chance of continuing making decisions that would affect my spiritual health. I wanted the vitality of my saviour again, though on the outside it "appeared" that I was one way; I knew on the inside I wasn't. What good is keeping up appearances when the very essence of who I am was at stake. After that decision, opportunities to go againist the decision I made, made itself available; but I meant what I spoke to my energy source the day I took communion. My integrity in Yeshua the Christ far outweighs the opinions, perspectives and conclusions of others. I have such peace knowing that at the end of each day I purpose to be pleasing in the face of the one who created me. I am so grateful that on this journey called life we're not left having to "figure it out". That we have a moral guide, a spiritual guide, a peaceful and truth filled guide, the holy bible to help us along the way. Yeshua's love and grace is one of the most cherishable treasures I have ever experienced! It brings about wholeness, peace and freedom. I have had the awesome and amazing privilege to have met others who share this same experience; connecting with them and growing in this experience together makes for a very rewarding life I must tell ya.
So, in my conclusion ( :-) this has turned out to be pretty long huh :-) ) A life of integrity before the ultimate energy source ever is far more valuable than a facade before men. Never compromise your standards, no one who truly respects you or the integrity you desire to uphold will ask you too. You are worth making healthy choices and your relationship with your creator is too!
I would like to leave you with these words of strength and empowerment if you may find yourself needing to re-evaluate some things within yourself and/or around you? " Yeshua, I desire to be close to you, closer than I am now. I ask for your grace in any and all areas of my life that didn't (doesn't) reflect your character or patterns. I desire to know you. I accept you in my life and I accept you in this ___ (area). Guide me into your truth and I will follow. Guide me to a safe place where I may grow in my knowledge and understanding of you. Surround me with people who have dedicated their lives to being properly connected to you so that they may stand side by side with me on this journey. I now know that I can make the choice to follow you, reflect you, live with you as my ultimate source of energy (life) and have a life of integrity, thank you"
* a life of holiness is a life of peace.
* you are loved so much by your creator
*he'll prove you, you don't have to prove yourself when you walk in his honor
*I pray for your courage in making the necessary choices needed to live life honorably
*make the necessary changes, it's going to be okay
*email me if you'd like to talk i'm here
* I love you very much!
*peace & blessings
*email: nikiflowllc@gmail.com
Stay Calm & Sparkle,
Niki Flow
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